Not all pain is gain.

I vowed to vanquish all the difficulties & hard times I face ever since a donkey years ago? No doubt to admit that I'd totally wiped it off every time I face one.. Unpredictable, uncontrollable. I wish all the problems could be swiped away in a blink of an eye, giving me a second to look around, to feel, to see what's happening around me.

Temper rises as problems are piling up. I'm sorry to people around that I'm disoblige sometimes, nothing could be done but to seal up my own mouth before I start speaking out things that I do not wish to.

Everyone faces different kind of problems. Different situations. No one truly understands your situation. Don't ever underestimate the ability that you have to solve problems. I'm not being inattentive towards suggestions or opinions that people around given, it's just that I believe in my own D.E.C.I.S.I.O.N. I handle my problem, I solve them myself. A hand needed sometimes but not an extra hand that ruins them, that's definitely annoying. Thou not to underestimate, yet don't overestimate.

Don't judge my decision if you don't want anyone to judge yours. Mind our own business. It's often said , One man's food is another man's poison. true enough.

You might have stepped into my shoe, but you will never understand till you walk in it. Had you?

dream will always be a dream

Was hanging out with my friends. an outing. while we were eating, I thought I saw wrongly, but I saw you. YES it's you. You appeared in front of me, out of a sudden. A surprise that I'd never thought I'll ever get.

You walked towards me, held my hand & asked me not to speak a word. I then went off with you to somewhere else. & I asked "don't you have class on Monday? How are you suppose to be here?" .

You then showed me the flight ticket you held and tell me that you'll be leaving at night. I remember I sent you off, just like that day back in July. Tears flowed out of my eyes.. Once again I felt so heavy-hearted

Alarm rang, It was a dream. How silly am I to think that It's real. I guess I miss you too much. Am happy to have this dream, but yet too short.

"butter" months

It's you who accompanied me through this 10 months. ♥

♥ you LKM.

save me. save me

I'd thought before, is this the suitable course that I ever wanted?
Why am I forcing myself to take a 8 months course?
cuz' I don't wanna waste even more time.
No time for me to regret by now. It's too late!
I'm always into dilemma.
Studies, pre u, results, degree .
Aaaaaah!
It will be something very successful for me if I can make through this course.
I can't do anything when I'm stressed out.
I don't feel like doing homework
I don't feel like studying
but I'll feel guilty if I don't do.

What the hell is wrong with you Liew Siew Hui??
Pity the boy who gets all my bad mood splashed on him this few days . I'm sorry dear.

Perhaps this is real. I'm taking in desserts !
too bad I personally DON'T LIKE DESSERTS !

Hungry ghost. Month of 7.

Sis reminded me million of times : "DO NOT SPEED IN HIGHWAY DURING THIS PERIOD OF TIME"

Now I understand why

Condition 1 : Usually cars driving 90-100 will be at the middle lane while those lorries are on the left lane, consider as the slow lane with speed 60 . Today --> People who drive at the middle lane is driving at 120km/hr. I'm too lenient so I drove in the left lane today :P Safe driver .

Condition 2: Don't try to fight with people that are hungry ! they will flash light till your eyes buta ! Even a bus driver will flash light & stick so near to your car butt. HELLO, I'm so gonna report you for driving more than 90km/hr on highway, can't you see that motorcycles already spaced up the left lane????? BLIND AR YOU!

Condition 3: I got home within 45 minutes on FRIDAY. gosh. it's a friday ! never once i got home less 45 minutes . Now we know how efficient they are under certain circumstances :)

Condition 4: you will still face the jam all the way till Jln Tun Razak even if you speed. Lucky me that I escaped before reaching Midvalley.

Condition 5 : Pointed my middle finger to the uncle who over take me & almost caused me accident. I knew he saw that through the mirror :P who cares, stop in the middle of the highway and show back to me ah bun :P

Condition 6 : I'd better start going to class earlier for 8am class. Due to some reason, people are driving slow in the morning, and abnormally fast in the evening. I guess you know why don't you :P


Study hard siewhui :) 3 more months to go. just 3 more months.

woooooopsie, my last teen

Hey peeps :) Birthday is over.
First of all, thanks for those who wished me a day earlier by mistake, those who wished me on that day itself & those who wished me belated. Much appreciated. :)
Went of to Kizuna for Japanese food, then Kbox. No alcohol, surprisingly..
I'll let the pictures do the talking alright :)



This two tiny cans cost us rm18 each. But nice :)

Poser fail.
Second round @kbox :D
The only guy getting high that night :D
Di yan is high too .. haha
Went out solo summore. Daniel ah daniel. LOL

Miss lammy's not-so-success-guai-lui look :P
She always with this pose. ALWAYS. never change
Birthday cake made by peik, lam, teng :D :D :D BLUEBERRY CHEESE CAKE. ma favourite :)


The girls. :)

The guys. Zjin wasn't there for the second round. SAD.

Last but not least, MEEEEEE :)
I had a really great night with you people. Thanks a lot for coming :)
Thanks for all the presents :)
Boyf wasn't here. But I take the iTouch as an early birthday present. ♥ ♥
I'm waiting for the birthday card to arrive :D

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It rained last night. It reminds me of you.

Ever had a pet before?
A pet that shares all your happiness & sadness.
Brings you joy.
I miss my dog. Lucky, that died 2 years ago.
I didn't know he would have given me so much of memories that even until today, I would cry out of no where when I think of him.

People say " When a pet is going to die, they will die at a place where their owner can't see, so that their owner won't feel sad " Is that true? I guess so.
I remember it was a rainy day. Raining heavily throughout the whole day.
As usual, lucky who likes to sneak out of the house to get some walking on his own around our neighbour hood, sneaked out that night.
Parents disallow me to go out to find Lucky when I realize that it wasn't coming back home as soon as he did.

I still remember, after the rain stopped, I went all over the neighbourhood to look for Lucky. No response. Sis told me he might got stolen by some other passerby.It was a day before my driving test.. 12th October 2008. I found his body around 12am that night.
I saw him from far, I thought.... I thought he was injured & he was unable to move. As I walk closer, I saw his flesh, He's lying dead on the grass field opposite my house. He got banged by a car? a motorbike? IDK. But i cursed the one who hit him will die in an accident as well. Cruel? I'm not.
It's either he got banged, the person moved him to the grass field or, Lucky got banged & he moved to the nearest grass field on his own, with his wound bleeding.
Seeing his flesh turned white, without any blood stain. Believed that he died under the heavy rain, Blood got washed away drip by drip without anyone's concern .
Lucky who shares all my happiness for the past 6 years , He's just like me, a pampered kid.
When I'm unhappy, he's always there for me. He will just sit quietly beside me. When I got scolded by parents, I usually find Lucky as my companion.
Now he's gone. For almost 2 years but I'm still missing him. I would do anything to bring him back to life. :(

I passed my driving test the following day with my swollen eyes. So? Lucky is not there to share my joy. He's gone. He love being in the car. He will be super duper happy, running here & there. But now, he never have a chance to.I don't like rainy days. It reminds me of the day that Lucky died.

Lucky is special in his own way. He is not those expansive dogs that needs extra care, he is not those dogs like poodles, not like golden retriever. He's just a mixture of a pincher & chihuahua. Some might think that he's ugly. What-so-ever. He's my dog. He's special for me, more than enough to be. I miss hugging him.