secret

Recently I've been catching up with a book called secret . As I'd mentioned earlier. It's indeed a good book to read. I realized that every time when I'm upset with something, automatically some other negative thoughts will join in as well, which practically makes my mood even worst . Yes, my mood fluctuates. I refused to admit it but I found that almost everyday I experience ups and downs. Urgh. There are always things I wished I can don't worry about but I can't . It's like the energy that's flowing in me that keeps all this thought going . Though this book teaches people how to think in a brighter side, how to attract good things and feelings. But I just can't adapt it into my life.

Somehow all this were due to the collection of my previous experiences. Whether it's from my family experience, friendships or relationships. Most likely they contributed quite a lot in my feelings collection throughout my life in this 19 years and build the ME of today. Guess I'm not that strong as you guys see. I know I know, life is not always gratifying. I've been telling this to myself millions of times but still I can't apply it. Well, I'm not blaming anyone. I'm just grumbling. More or less I'll feel better if I write out everything. Not everything I can speak out through my mouth as I'm always very weak in expressing out my own feelings.

I know all the things I'm going through now is still the beginning of the first chapter in my life. I've gotta work hard in my studies. That I'd promised myself. I felt so guilty that I've gotta waste so much money of my parents. I'll definitely disappoint them if I were about repeat the same mistake again. I know I've been complaining a lot though I might already got the best that I can get. I'm learning . I'm learning . All I need is time & support. Well I don't need any extra supports. As long as not negative words towards me. I am not those kind of people who will get motivated through harsh words. I consider myself as a bad temper person. Just like what I wrote on my facebook. I stand within the opinions which I think its right. You can don't support me, but just keep the mouth shut will do. That definitely helps a lot.

Guess my mood is once again dropped to the bottom. =/


p/s: Everyone is unique in their own way. It takes time to find them out.

My lecturers, there's where I found the differences .

Alright. That's my student ID .
Don't be interested in how do I look in the picture cuz I look horrifying.
URGH.
seriously it's the camera's problem.
I couldn't stand this picture.
Luckily I don't have to wear it on my neck with the lanyard everyday like how we used to wear at Utar.
hahaha.
Great, one week had passed.
I can't believe I survived through all 8am classes .
I used to found economics darn boring back in Utar.
But I got interested in this when I'm here.
No doubt that Mr Yee is a good lecturer.
Now that's what I got to compare with.
Accounts is back in my life AGAIN.
But I was told by my lecturer that last year there was only 38 students in the whole world scored perfect score in accounts and 7 of them were taught by her.
I don't know yet whether she's that good or not.
But we'd already been assigned to do assignments !
I found legal studies pretty interesting as I am brought to a brand new subject with something that I'm interested in. CASES. :) Courts & bla bla bla.
I can't believe I'm attending 6 hours for each subject every week.
Kinda crazy I guess.
30 credit hours a week. =/
But I should be happy cuz SAM in science is 36 credit hours a week.
hahaha!

Learning up to be a more independent person compared to last time. I've got no choice.
1 week already passed. and week 13 I'll be sitting for my semester exam already.
My roommate was great as I found there are some similarities among us. She's afraid of lizards too. Both of us had a really hard time chasing over the lizard all around our room few days back =D

Well right. Nothing much interesting happened in this week
Yes, there's something that happened, but I guess everything was settled down.
That was the first time. seriously I had a hard time getting over it and calm down myself.
a-deep-double eye lid is still on . URGH.


p/s: I'm going back ipoh next week . HOOOOOOOOORAY. *claps*

CHUI ar? =P

First day getting my first step into lecture classes again.

Oh great, I forgotten everything about my maths. =(

I don't know I should consider myself lucky or unlucky for having only 15 classmates.

Where basically I got no other choice cuz SAM in humanities only 15 in total. haha!

Well, only one guy appeared in my class. And seriously my kap-zai-hope was destroyed at that very moment. Grrrrr.

First day of class, all classes ended early, and spended quite alot of money in photo-copying books. .

I'm looking forward to the other 2 classes which are Moral Education & Econs tomorrow.

I've gotta get used with my new life over here.

Having a lecture class in a lecture hall with only 15 of us, where it's no longer like how it seems to be in Utar, 15 ? Can't even form a tutorial group in Utar.!

We were informed that, every 3 classes we missed for each subject, a warning letter will be issued to us and our parents. haha!

This is INTERESTING.

I don't even have the chance to skip classes I guess.

Luckily I still have time to get back to my room in the afternoon to have at least an hour nap on monday and tuesday :D.

Class at 8 again tomorrow . I've gotta go to bed. I'll keep my blog updated from time to time peeps.

p/s: 5 months seemed so fast when I spend my everyday with you. No matter through skype, phone calls or even just text messages, & though we didn't get to meet up with each other since last 2 months, but you are always the one that gives me a hope to live for a better tomorrow. Love you :) ♥

My first time.

I consider myself brave enough today.

Went off to Mid Valley all alone this morning to meet up Peik & Zjin

The journey to Midvalley was effing long. 15 mins bus to ktm station from my hostel & 1 hour from Nilai Ktm Station till Midvalley Ktm Station. Urgh. total of 10 stations. Shoulder was very sour as I've been carrying my handbag with my laptop hidden inside & stood for an hour and packed with others. MALAYS. =.=

Not to be racist. But they are so uncivilized .

Especially those samseng ones.

Made me felt so unsafe living in a country like this =/

Was afraid. but, everything has its first time isn't it.? At least I took my first step out :)

It's kinda dangerous. I'll suggest myself to get some friends to accompany me next time :D . It will definitely be more preferable :)

Off to midvalley, Sadly that Alice 3D was sold out, and even Dragon 3D also sold out :(. No choice and we chose Day Breakers.

Was indeed a good movie though. much better than what I'd expected.First I though it would be something like 30days of nights where it turned out to be a shitty movie. Just that I don't really like the ending of the movie. Kinda frightening & horrifying overall. As those scenes are seriously 18SG. Ewwww.. Well, Zjin took my bag, so I only can close my eyes with my new bought jacket :D.

For those who like disgusting movies, this is the choice in the now showing movie list :)

the vampire rules the world, hunting down human beings like those pathetic animals.

What's outstanding is that here wear formal wear!
Can't really see what's in the poster right? have a clearer look down there.

Yes , they hunt for humans, and get humans blood as their daily supplies. Until human beings extinct.
This is one of the scene where those vampires didn't get enough blood supplies or did not take in any blood for a long time. & turn into this fucking-ugly-creature. LOL

A tiring day. Didin't want to get myself back to Nilai alone . So called my sis up and asked her to fetch me to her place. Currently at sis's place now :)

My dad called .

yesterday:

daddy, I need to buy one calculator for SAM course one.

how much is it? 50? 60? 70? or 80??

Erm, 250 *kept quite*

whaaaaaat? mat yeh calculator you buying wor. chi sin ar

Erm, original price was 330, I'm buying a second hand one from my friend for 250.

You ar, only know how to use my money

=.=

today:

where are you?

with jie jie now

If you not enough money, ask from jie jie first lar.

*big fat smile*

hahaha! I can't believe my dad said that xD

I guess i gotta go. I'm kinda sleepy. while waiting for a phone call :)

p/s: I wanna talk to you now :(

Woooooootz . Heeeelo Inti University College.

Heeeeeeeeeelo People ! :D

Reached Nilai.

Safe, but yet exhausted.

Everything went well. except for the boooooring orientation that kills me.

Guess I'll be skipping tomorrow's one

haha!

I was praying hard that I'll get a nice and good roommate,

there I go, I got one :)

A friendly, clean, & tidy one.

& it simply helps me in training myself up for being a more tidy, clean & systematic person.

*big grin*

Her name is woan ling.

Currently in her 3rd sem for ADP.

she's hardworking.

hope I'll get affected by her :D

I was shocked for having such a big room actually. :)

Much more bigger than what i expected.

Since it's horizontally long,

so it's around, erm, at least 31/2 times bigger than my kampar room,

though its a share room ,but still, I have more places for me to put my stuffs now. haha!

this is the room excluding the wardrobe & the toilet on the left.

this is the toilet , we each have one basin. weeeee :)
The wardrobe. Gosh! I got 2 !! ngek ngek ngek

My table for sure :)

laukitmun, spotted kitmun collie & hugo not?

& the hectic, strengthless siewhui

You can't blame me for having such an ugly look

& proves that I can still blog though I woke at 530 am & drove to KL. :D

Off I go peeeeeeps :)

Stay tune ♥

p/s: My timetable sucks :(

SAD

To love is to forgive ♥

Not everything that happens in our life is gratifying. There are always moments that are unpredictable & unexpectable. I often grudge against things that doesn't work in my way. That's not good I know. And I guess I learnt from everytime's incident. Learning from mistake is always the best way to improve. But when things happen over & over again, before one can fully recover, that might be harder to be accepted and it'll take up a longer recovery period. When someone is under recovery , and there comes another impact, even though already under recovery but it'll definitely weaken one's condition even more than the previous one.

I found fast way for recovery : To love is to forgive :) .. Takes time, but definitely it'll work out more than bringing out world war 3 where both side will have to overcome severe injury. Speak out what heart feels rather than keeping them untold. When it collects ,& until there's no more space to fit in anymore discontentment, & it will only be fatal for both & no other way else. See things in the other half's side, and try to understand. When arguments started, automatically it'll be very habitual & it'll be a routine in one's relationship. I don't know bout others. I have my opinion. Whether other accepts it or not, non of my business. Or it should be , non of their business even if they don't agree with me. haha!

p/s: Though to love is to forgive, but there are certain limits where one can stand..not everything can be forgiven. There are always solutions for sudden happenings, the word BUT will only worsen the situation.

Act smart. Think smart.

love u as always ♥

I'm in love with alice in the wonderlaaaaaaaaand. =)

At last at last & F.I.N.A.L.L.Y...
I've got the chance to watch Alice In The Wonderland.
Oh my gosh, I wanna watch 3D =/
I've been waiting for this movie since last year july. & now ..
Luckily it didn't disaapoint me =D. 9/10 ...

And all of us know that Johnny Depp was one of the cast in this awesome show.

doesn't look like him. Isn't it.

He do look pathetic in the movie.

Well, for those who watched Sweeney Todd, for sure you'll remember her.

Helena Bonham

& this is her fucking annoying bitchy look in the movie.
Seriously I feel like slapping her so much
Big head creature.!
Everything she uses is in ♥ shape.
even as you can see her lipstick shape, in heart shape as well =/
well, she's good in acting as a lousy red queen bitch. haha!

Unexpectedly, Anne Hathaway was one of the actress in the movie

She's the White queen,

well,with her innocent look =)

She's pretttttttttay !

Seriously I won't mind watching again...

in 3D 3D 3D 3D 3D 3D 3D !!

all payments for registration fees and my rental has been done.

Suddenly I felt that I've used up a big amount of money.

I felt bad =/

I said thank you to my dad & he asked me to study hard.

I will, or I should say I've no choice.

By the way, I went shopping =D

Bought two tops, ONLY

I'm lazy to pack. I want magic. *DING*

Off i go.

& my head hurts. Urgh

♥ Toddles.

I'm happy for you. :)

Well great. had a sleepless night last night.. It's like as if I'm the one gonna take results. Since 9 in the morning, * I wonder why the fuck I set my alarm at 9 * , woke sleep woke sleep just to check my phone. Even during midnight could hardly fall asleep. Well, I felt happy that he scored 9a's :).. good job done ! ♥ you much... well, yawning all day long.. argh. Guess this is just a short one . Off I go.

My boyfriend complains that he has alot of PIMPLES. haha!

The other pic of last night's camwhoring =D

Pretty upset today. Mainly because of the hostel for Inti . *sad face*

contacted with Inti & well, they called me up.

Was told that single room is no.longer.available. It's F.U.L.L.Y. B.O.O.K.E.D.

Even single room without air con & without attached toilet also no more ( though I thought that'll be my very last choice )

& now what? I ended up in a air cond-toilet attached twin sharing room .. Won't be experiencing much privacy as last time anymore. awwwww.

Things I will not do anymore when I'm staying in a share room :

can't get out of toilet naked,

can't scream inside my room,

can't throw my stuff here, my stuff there,

hopefully my future roommate will be a good, friendly, better yet adorable & trouble-free one :) * I know I cause trouble sometimes, but still I hope for a better person to stay with me wut. heeees *

Not everything is intelligible . Guess I need to install a memory card in my mind.. Oh yes, I realized that I have short-term-memory. Always got scolded by mum when she asked me to buy her stuffs & yet I call back and ask again. Yet sis just asked me to bring a memo pad all along with me whenever I go. *wtf*.

p/s: I just found out that my course actually ends next year mid-january. =.=. what's the point having 2 months holiday at the end of the year then? Which means I have to study during holidays.. AAAAAAAAAH.

p/s: things i'd done this few days seemed to be so unavailing =.=

while Mr.Lau is still with his homework.

can't help myself from camwhoring. *big smile*

boredom kills, that's a fact.

Something pissed me off last night.

& well, I pretended or I should said I tried to be calm.

In my heart already scolding *niama ar, parents never taught you ar?*

sorry for being vulgar. but, urgh. nevermind..

well, today was fine.

cuz I think it the other way round.

I'm happy now :) hahaha!

Guess I'll be waving hands with TGV for a very long period of time.

Perhaps until end of the year.

Somehow I guess it's the only place I found that even manager can joy up with the staffs together.

Well, more or less throughout a year of experience, or less than that, I realizes that human beings are irksome! very!

I personally don't like changes, thats why I prefer staying at home rotting and counting footsteps everday than going back to work in an unfamiliar working environment.

Health condition still bad I consider.

Weather is killing,

No appetite. great. Insomnia. even greater.

Kill me bah.

Urgh =/

a new post is up while waiting for the bf :)

worth waiting though just for a short conversation .

wanna see his face so badly right now.

hopefully he won't rush me to bed,

it hurts if he does :(

there I go, find some other things to do.

toddles ♥

6605.94 kilometers / 4104.86 miles apart

Suddenly, Keri Hilson's Knock You Down cheered me up :)

Ah, Not to mention bout my mood swings.

Back to live.

I'm lazy to pack my stuff . felt so annoyed everytime I saw those things I took back from kampar.

ARGH.. wasted 2 semester in Utar & oh, I'm back to foundation all over again *not remembering that I'm already 19* *rolling eyes*

Miss those time when we're still in uniforms, breaking school rules, skipping class & schools, giving lame excuses to mum just to skip school ( yeah, i have some tricks on this :) ) *wink*

Studying is burning money. seriously.

I wonder how long do I need to work then only I can earn back those expenses on studies & living cost?

"aiya, girls, study so much for what lar, find a rich guy & get married become richie woman can dy" It's easy to say, but how often we see this happening? Maybe in old ages,not now. I don't think we can even survive without a degree cert now in this society. *maybe degree isn't even enough thou*

I'm bored. missing you alot

Had so many flash backs today .

4 more months to go till I can pinch you ..ngek ngek ngek =)

6605.94 kilometers / 4104.86 miles seems so far but yet so close =)

because of you, i'm in love . ♥

FROM THE BF =D

blogspot posted by kitmun .

when time is counting

Made a simple video for kitmun :)

simple but took me up to 2 hours in re-make over & over again.

yeah I know I'm bakchi in this kinda stuff.

but yet kinda satisfy with it ♥

hope you like it :)

will be leaving to KL soon,

just shifted everything that's in Kampar back to Ipoh.

it's TRIPLE from the things i first brought there

seriously there are lots of memories in Kampar with my friends over there.

going mamak almost everyday at first, then got to meet some of the new friends, ( the tiko gang ) : Imba ( sze hen ), Lin yoong, aunty, nick, boon lee, sea huei, and .... list goes on..

Still remember when all of us when to mamak & chit-chatted till 4am in the morning & drove back to Ipoh for dimsum. *ooooops* :) & lots of other memories.

Time is counting. Not waiting for anyone.

chose to take march intake for sure it'll be tougher, but I don't wanna waste anymore time. .

Bought a book - The Secret by Rhonda Bryne. It's indeed a good book. Gets to cheer me up & change the way I used to think most of the time.

toddles :)

♥