08 November 2011

Past

I believe in karma. What you did in the part eventually turned out to happen on you someday later.
I wonder when will Karma bite my head off..
what's with all the things running in and out of my mind?

Sometimes we do things for no motive, no purpose. It all just go as the heart speaks.. wondering why I didn't regret at the point of doing, even I know I will regret any time soon in the future. There are still things that I'm not feeling regretful of. Tell me how my life's gonna be, how my life's gonna treat me..Sometimes I wanted to know more, but I ain't dare enough to take that one move. It's not easy to dwell in joy all the time, and indefinitely that the memories are indelible.

I guess I'm missing the past. Too much.


02 November 2011

What to do when you're down, helpless and hopeless?
You thought you had did enough, and you did put in efforts and hard work didn't paid off.
What can you do when the lecturer is the one being bias.
"I never see you in my class before"
Fyeah, check your attendance please.
Or it should be that you only notice those who are sitting right in front of your face? Or those who you considered to be "good students with high achievements"?
You showed me how bias you were.

Those who are considered "smart" always got treated better.. fair enough?

Lucky that I don't have to face some u for the rest of my life. seeing the fuck faces of yours, I feel like puking.

06 October 2011

random

When you feel like seeing each other so often, to share out all the happiness and unhappiness, all the certainties and uncertainties. To happen or not to happen?

I just hope you could spend a lil more time with me. Talk with me, chat with me.

It's gonna be difficult I know.

27 September 2011

Without anything.




Sometimes, the word "memory" ain't leaving. So much to think about, without a doubt the past always seem to be manifested by regrets.
Always hope the current and future to be replenish by something more meaningful that could be able to fill my weary life.
Sometimes I couldn't help it.
Flipping through the pages of life, I ain't sure whether I learned from the mistakes I did.
How many pages of happiness, how many pages of tears ?
The laughters, they don't appear when the tears over flowing my journey of life.
I should appreciate more perhaps.
I ain't able to control. Throwing out tantrums, all boiling out to be my own fault.
To ease the pain that is barely endurable, where are the efforts that were gone for so long?
What else could I ask for? Taking up the challenges, feeling lost and helpless.
Where were all the courages that once used to be around?
Trying to be as normal as I could, trying to be strong, trying to be lucid.
It's all just "try"
Failed.



17 September 2011

Lookout point, when you realise there's still a place in KL for you to chill.


Hello peeps, a hectic week full of hell lots of assign
ments due is finally over, pretty much awesome week on the other side, went to Lookout point to celebrate one of my friend's birthday. :)


Awesome view up there. I seriously enjoy it. Hope to have a second chance to go again in coming future. But drivers please be very careful cause the way to Look Out Point is awfully dark and dangerous.. This is what i captured.



Look Out Point is located at Ampang, roughly around 40 mins away from Kuala Lumpur. Most likely to depends on the traffic. I never knew there's a place that awesome at KL until i experience it myself.

The night I went, was after rain. So the weather there was cooling and there's fog, just like what you'll experience in Genting.

The best view of Kuala Lumpur is all in your sight. Everything is just so... beautiful when you're 300m above sea level.

We went to the Look Out Point Western & Local Cuisine instead of the other two which is Haven & Gasoline.

Food rated 6/10.












There're too many pictures and I'm lazy to upload them all. soweeeee

10 September 2011

Listen to too much depressing songs recently.


Guess I'm in depression.

Couldn't things just be a lil more simpler?

09 September 2011

Asking for more?

The heart doesn't only sore for the past, but also for the future.
Knowing that there might be some inevitable facts to come to real step by step, nothing to be done. nothing to be said.
Life is too much of concern
Too many things to be taken into consideration.
You're not the only one living in this world, don't take things for granted.
If it's meant for you, it will always come back to you.
Learning from my past, smiling.
The past life seem better. Wonder why did I complained, why did I not satisfy.
Leading to the path of today, without regrets of no choice. It'll be too late.
To face with faith, to move on with courages, bravery. Nothing less than being determine.
Things as seen, surface with no further approach of deeper understanding.
Life moves on.
Perhaps, people who are devoted always end up with sorrow and tears.
Where's the happiness that used to be there? So often that you could hardly remember all of them.
Enjoyable moments are short, never as prolonged as those that kill you deep inside.
Where's the memory of happiness when you're lost? when you're upset?
Gone, vanished.
Perhaps the sorrow always override happiness.
Just a sense of sadness, there it goes, wiping off the memories that once used to be treasured.
Where is the soul? Gone, somewhere.
To pursuit the happiness that each long for, ain't easy as it seem.
Perhaps to return to a piece of blank, clean and original paper, is rather difficult than asking for gold from the poor.
Nothing left undone. Everything is done, and over.



Life goes on.




06 September 2011

What of all?


Taking some time off, chilling.
Am starting to feel the pressure that was gone for so long.
Tears dropped, blaming on my own but no one else.. what could I do? what should I do? what should I not?
A dream will never come true unless I work on it.
When you dream of someone, it doesn't mean you miss the person, just hallucinations
Too much to be told, too little time to tell.
20 years gone too fast. too fast.
It seems like time living on this earth is reducing day by day, counting to the dejavu
How good if we are about to live long, with no life and death.
Crapped too much. I miss the past. I want a better future. Will I get one?
A life without fear, without burden, without barriers.....


Laundry is waiting for me. there I go...


Ups and downs, Can i expect more than that? or maybe less?
With no choice, life goes on.
when you're good, you get tons of friends,
when you're doing bad, you will not be appreciated.
Can we measure what we have?
sometimes the past seem to be better,
who knows the better might be waiting in future?


crapped too much, time to switch back to work.

26 August 2011

Back to blogging, Surprising enough?


Sudden flash back.

Life goes on.

12 June 2011

There are always words that are strong enough to break your heart into pieces.

07 May 2011

It's somewhere out there

Life depends mainly on how you deal with things and compromise with people around you.


Only if you really care about someone, you'll keep checking your phone, hoping there's a text.

Love is still around, it might be lost sometimes , but it'll be back if it's meant for you.
It's back now :))

19 April 2011

The unpredictables

Sometimes life seem to be predictable, but not always. Despite of the fact that everyone seems to demand more than giving, the world is changing from worse to worst. Mood changes, it can be such a sudden change and gives everyone a hard core shocked. They say girls' mood are like magic. This moment with laughter, the next moment with tears. When the world seem to be apart of us, who's there to care? who's there to notice? With all the marks in life, how many of them we actually can wipe off?

Often said, memories should be left behind and move on with no regrets. But how many of us can actually do that? Deep inside the heart, there's still a part of us left behind, forever. Whether to said that we are too selfish to let go, or whatever, sometimes there's no one that reads your mind. We know ourselves well.

Have you every ask yourself, why you're here? why you're not others? Seeing others with a different life, without further doubting, we always admire the ones with better life style from what we see from our eyes.

People only see things through the eyes, but they don't know, seeing and judging from the eyes is different from using the heart. They often contradicts. But we rather believe what we see, than using our heart to feel the real.

When someone seem to be far, they cherish.
In detailed, every day's routine.
Only when they don't implement the thought in them, that's when things change.
Always wish, always hope, always looking forward to a better day, just like yesterday. With laughters, off to bed.

If I could freeze any moment that I wish to.
But still, I believe there's one day, when I really get what I'm chasing for, with happiness overwhelming me every day.

Days are getting more rampant. Time awaits, IF.
I wish time could be turned back once again.

Toddles.

Miso R.I.P 17 April 2011


Miso left me on 17th April.. Tears dropped when he stopped breathing in my arms.
It's not really long thou, even for just a month, he gave me such memories even when i closed my eyes, he appeared.
Heart ached when he diarrhea for like 12 hours and nothing I could do but see him die off slowly :(
Cozy seemed to be so lonely and sad this two days. Trying very hard to get her a new companion but there ain't any suitable one yet.
A naughty yet a lovely one. I will miss him till forever. R.I.P baby Miso.


12 April 2011

only if

Tadaaaaa . I'm back. :) It would be better for me to update my lil blog before I get myself in the state of hysteria and jump off the condo.

Nothing much to mention about studies, assignments piling up and driving me nuts. *move aside*
Seriously, I'm very much enjoying the life now. Classmates I'm having now seriously giving me great laughs everyday with all the dirty-jokes, and some "brainless" conversation. Never knew the friendship could built up this fast. Just love them ♥

Sometimes not everything that you express turns out the way you wanted to.

It's better still.

03 April 2011

March the month of ups and downs


Back in Ipoh ;)
Sadly it seems to be a trip now going back to Ipoh . I miss home.


I'm starting to enjoy my Uni life. Getting fun with a bunch of "i consider"crazy classmates. Hope things get even better in coming future..

Did I mentioned about the Guinea Pigs I bought ? *rephrase*, Guinea pigs that laukitmun & I bought.. The Abyssinian Guinea Pigs.

I named the brown one Cozy, and the boyf named the black one MacBeth. Love them so much as they keep me constantly staring at their activities. As a "PIG" , they do exactly the same thing.
Eat, sleep, poop. *repeats*



Sadly, MacBeth died 3 days later after we took her home. Yeah, like WTF ? Out of a sudden. Her death got my tears flowing out like the free flow water.

R.I.P dear.


Was told the Guinea Pigs couldn't really survive alone after a sudden change on the environment. Got Cozy another partner, - the white one - Named MISO. Yes. Miso miso miso. A male one instead. :) He's awfully active & coward at the same time. Drive me nuts all the time. How nice if MacBeth is still around.

The lovely couple :)

Too much things to highlight bout the interesting life. (Ignore the part where life got piled up with assignments 24/7). Below is one of the INTERESTING one that I saw so far like seriously? Yes. indeed.In fact I was wondering and there's an instinct I know the owner. I guess. ? Seriously parking spaces at campus sucks all time. It really does! The mud gets your car as dirty as if you went for an "unforgettable" adventure.

Pretty much picking out some time out of the blue.


An effect from frustration. You can't blame me alright. I have my way to release stress :D.

Been abandoning bloggie more and more often. The condition is gonna be more rampant in coming days. Sorry. :(

Miss me people :)

To assignments, and beyond !

17 March 2011

April don't come?

Everything in our own life doesn't depend on anyone but ourselves. We set our own pathway and decision making takes part everyday. Since we make our own decision, then what's the point of complaining in the end?

Studies is just a pathway for us to step into the society with more knowledge, but that doesn't mean it's everything. Experience often overtake some of them. Just because hope to have a better living and lifestyle in future, therefore studying becomes part of the journey in life.

Duh, crap enough. COME BACK. !
Been sick for 2 weeks. First got attacked by sore throat, followed by fever, and now, running nose and coughing my lungs out. Crap

Assignments due date approaching and giving me no time to breathe. the worse part is I hate the online databases which is driving me nuts.. What the hell to search for my article? At least they should give me a topic and not *any topic you like*. I typed "communication" and 180 thousands articles came out for me to choose, What the hell ! Bullshit.

Can't wait to meet up with the boyf. I need you to cook me porridge. Sick of eating outside food and maggie already :( Life as we know it. True indeed.




08 March 2011

I am back !


Imma SORRY that I abandoned my blog like for a donkey years ago.

What to do?I've got no internet connection at home.. Been ask a few times bout the prolonged period that I didn't update. Geeeez.

Admitted myself in a new study environment, much things to be learnt, to get used with the surroundings & to search for lecture theaters (ex: dummies like ME always ask around when unsure bout something) Was pretty much happy with the campus, except for the awful parking which are limited. To be rephrased, VERY LIMITED.

I love my lecturers. They are just way too awesome. But still trying to get used with friends around and mix with more people around. As known, I m not those who take the initiative to talk to people sometimes. =) Regarding the course I'm taking, whether it's something good or not, it's still unknown yet. No exams but all 100% on coursework. Fully on coursework.. Think at the bright side, at least I don't have to study for any exam / test. Pessimistically, I can't have any last minute brush up if I messed up my assignments like last time. I mess up my assignment now = DEAD. AAh, forget bout it first. :)

The boyf enrolled himself into IMU, (which is 5-10mins driving distance from my house) heeeee. I'm happy of course, but still we each have own things to busy around, to study hard to achieve what we promised. Still trying to get used with things happening around, whether it's fortunate or unfortunate, still gotta deal with it though we can't meet as often as we hope.

Bad dreams attacking recently. Haunted me for a few weeks with all the fear that I am with. Better to be left untold. Collie & Jangust as my listener will do

The place where degree begins. Godblessme.
I just love this place


More updates soon, I hope.
By the way, happy "bitchy" day 08.03.11
Signing off with LOVE

13 February 2011

Holiday no more

Valentine's day is around the corner, which is tomorrow. Awfully sad that the bf & I couldn't have an on date celebration.. Often said , if a couple is truly in love, everyday is valentine's day. But somehow I still hope to have a celebration. It still mean something isn't it?

Well, a good chance for me to recall back how we actually make it till today :) We both know. :)
Happy Valentine's love

Btw, class is starting soon, back to no life. =/ Oh gosh I thought I would have been THAT excited for degree but yet it turned the other way. Not really looking forward to classed but still hope to get some nice & friendly classmates :) Time flies, 3 years will pass very fast in a blink of an eye. By then I'm already 23. Aaaaaaah ! Twenty-THREE. such a huge number =/.

Sometimes moments that are unhappy are meant to be washed away from the memory while those happy ones are meant to be kept forever. It's outta my control on what I want to think but things that are happening around causes unwanted thoughts. DUH.



P/s: I want roses that will not wither. :)

08 February 2011

Love is never an acceptance of whole.

H.E.L.L.O

guess my blog is dying, soon enough

Valentine's Day is coming. Celebrations for couples who are deeply in love. Urgh, even not-so-in-love also will celebrate. How I wish to have a valentine's celebration as I always wanted to. Unfortunately couldn't have one this year,again. Well, people always say when both are in love, everyday is valentine's day, it doesn't have to be specifically to set a day to make it special since everyday is the same for all couples. Agree? True indeed but somehow I am not into that way of saying. Never mind, truth is not avoidable. Looking forward to a delayed valentines celebration if the boyf will take the move, or else forget it.




I always thought that love is acceptance of a whole. Now I know it is not..People still demands.

19 January 2011

love is in the air

Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Imissyou.


& you still fill my everyday with laughter without fail


hope to see you real soon darling !

12 January 2011

determination

I've abandoned my blog long enough than ever..


Did nothing much recently except seeing house renovation taking place. Going off to Kl to withdraw from one and register another uni. Well, hope everything is gonna be great :)

Who doesn't wish to have a devoted relationship. A considerate and understanding partner that can be by your side all the time. There are still factors that matter at times. Problems are meant to be encountered. To be demolished and vanquished. Maybe it's just time that doesn't allow things to happen perfectly, but the time will come. Hard work pays off in the end. Determination is much needed right now. Very much.

Everything is gonna be fine. I know it will be.

06 January 2011

The boyf's bday


HAPPEEEEEE BURFDAAAAAY , BOYF

As this is a late post for the birthday boy, first of all, sorry.

Did not have the chance to celebrate your birthday with you last year and finally *DING*, You're here this year. A simple outing, movie, dinner, movie again at my house and finally you spent your birthday seeing me playing mahjong. Soweeee for that :)

There're much things to be said, a great start of a new year, much changes to be faced in the foreseeable future, to endure to cherish & to uphold all the unwanted problems. Not to worry that I'll always be there to s----uuupport ! :)

What others say ain't important as when I'm with you, each moment is vital.

I hope you love the cheese tart I bake :)

02 January 2011


Our very first couple trip + hengsockteng to cameron highlands for New Year Countdown. Awesome trip I would say.

Happy New Year !


The best time of life is not when you achieve things that you want. Is when there's someone by your side to share your ups and downs all the time.


love is you.


we should know what we should and should not do in certain place, certain time. *inside joke*

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